but I don’t think I’m feeling it anymore. That feeling you get when you look at a guy, and you know he has these imperfections, but you just don’t care because in the end, just being together is all that matters.

I used to feel that. I used to be that girl who looked at him and was curious as to why he would ever even think about going out with me.

Now, I’m just not so sure. I feel like we’re dying, and he doesn’t even notice. His flaws are something I see. It’s like they pop out at me, and I don’t notice the great things I used to notice. Yet… at the same time, I enjoy having him by my side. 

I just… don’t know what I’m doing anymore.

October 30, 10:35PM (1 year ago) (Notes)